Title: Just A Little Further 1/1

Author: Merrie (mpierson@uneedspeed.net)

Rating: NC-17

Pairings: B/S

Summary: PWP, first time

Disclaimer: Joss yes, me no

Dedication: To Vic, Wajoma, Toga, Dee, Barb, Saber, Isabelle, Trish,

Pandora, Gillian and all the wonderful ladies at One Good Day!

Distribution: My sites (bloodremembers.com and heatdesire.com) and anyone

else, want, take, have, email.

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I can't believe we're actually doing this. I mean, yeah, I believe it, but

if you'd asked me a month ago, I would've said, no way! Not ever! But here

we are!

And I'll be damned if this isn't the most amazing thing I've every

experienced! Not that I think it's that way for him, I mean, I'm only 20

and he's, what? 125 or something? I'm sure he's had lots better, but his

eyes are all glassy and his nose all scrunched up. So what if he's had

better. Looking at him now, I'd say he's pretty happy.

And he's breathing. Must be old habit or something, cause every time we

pull back for a second, he takes a deep breath with me. I just wish he'd

open his eyes and let me see, oh yeah, there they are. He has the most

amazing eyes I've ever seen, deep blue with flecks of gold, curled lashes, I

could drown in his eyes. And now he's saying something to me, but his eyes

. . .

*****

She stopped. Did I do something wrong? She's just staring at me, right in

my eyes. "Luv?" Hmmm, either she's not hearing me, or I did something

seriously wrong. Oh wait, she just sighed. I know that sigh, and I let a

little chuckle escape at the memory of the last time I heard someone sigh

like that. Me and Dru were at a Beatles concert, and all the chicks were

sighing at those gits the same way she just sighed at me. But no-one's

every looked at me this way before.

Oh crap, what the hell did I just do? I can't believe it! Me, William the

Bloody, just sighed back at her. Step aside Peaches, a new Pouf's in town.

I can feel another one coming, and it's all her fault! I mean, she's

standing there looking so beautiful, her pouty lips all red and puffy cause

I've been kissing them, her face flushed and warm, her eyes glazed a bit;

I've gotta do something before I do sigh again. Got me pride, you know?

Mmmm, that's better. Those lips taste so good. But I startled her out of

her thoughts just then, and she's not quite into this yet. That's okay. I

can snog enough for both of us.

*****

Whoops, guess I zoned out there. Wonder how long I was gone, not that I

care, cause I'm back kissing him again, and good GOD he feels so good! I

wonder if we should get a little closer? I think he's afraid to make any

first moves, this being our first time making out and all. He's just

standing there with his hands at his side! I wish he'd touch me or

something.

Well, not touch me touch me, but, hold me. Maybe if I just put my hand on

his hip like, WOAH! Okay, I guess that's what he was waiting for! Cause

now he's got his arms wrapped around me holding me of the floor and we're

spinning in circles. It's making me feel lightheaded and I can feel his

lips curl against mine into a smile.

Look at him, smiling and looking up and me, laughing, he's practically

beaming. He's so perfect, and now we're spinning again. Owwww, we need to

stop or I'm gonna throw up! "Spike," but before I can get the rest out

he's kissing me again, and standing still, thank God.

*****

She was gonna put an end to this, I know it. Her face was a little green

and she had that look that said, something's not right. But this can't

stop! She looked so beautiful and carefree, spinning round and round in my

arms, her hair swishing out behind her and her hands on my shoulders. Gods

I love her so much.

So I kissed her. I figure, maybe if I keep her mouth busy she'll forget and

we won't have to stop. Oh, whoops again! Maybe sliding her down my body

back to the floor wasn't such a good idea, cause I know damn well she felt

how hard I am for her. She's gonna run.

But she's not running, in fact, she's kinda swaying against me and, unghh,

yeah, just like that. Okay, okay, get a grip here. If she doesn't stop

that soon, I'm gonna have a mess to clean up. Could she possibly know what

she's doing to me?

Gotta break contact, ahhhhh, soon! Couch. In the corner. Yeah, there we

go. She's light as a feather, amazing something so tiny's so powerful!

More amazing that she's letting me carry her away. Maybe I should just take

her upstairs to the bed, but that would be assuming way too much.

*****

Wow, he's really turned on by this. Like I'm not? He's such a good

kisser! Mmmm, I can't believe how hard he was, but I guess he didn't like

it that much. He just swooped me up and put me on the couch next to him. I

figured him for one that likes to get a little groiny now and then. He's

breathing really hard too. I wonder if it was too much? Nah. Not for

him. Must have been doing it wrong. I think I'll let him take the lead

from now on, but he won't unless I let him know it's okay. How do I do

that?

"Spike, so good." Oh yeah, that did it. He even growled a little. Yikes!

Cold hands on my stomach. Actually, that feels really good. Yeah, go just

a little higher, almost, and just a bit more, ahhhhh.

I still can't believe we're doing this! We were just making out before, but

now we're past first base and moving right along. His fingers feel so good

slipping under my bra like that. I have to touch him back.

I must really suck at this! I barely touched him and his whole body just

tensed up, and he practically bit my tongue. Great. Now he's pulled away.

Am I that much of a turn off?

*****

She really wants me, but she looks like she's about to cry. Why, oh I get

it. She thinks I'm not liking this cause I keep pulling her away from me.

If she only knew it cause she gets me so hot I'm almost out of control.

Here, let's take that pretty little hand and put it right, ahhhhh, oh right

there. That's it luv, keep doing thaaaaat! She's an expert at this.

I want to tell her how much I love her, but if I do she'll run. I don't

want to scare her away. Her fingers are just making little circles on my

thigh, but it's enough to make me cum. Well, to hell with it. If I cum, I

cum. But I hope I don't, not yet.

Her lips taste like honey and her tongue's soft as silk. I could snog with

her to the end of the world if she'd let me. "Mffmmm, Buffy . . .," woah,

control. Just don't think about her hand on your cock like that. She's got

my hips jumping off the couch.

"Come here baby," yeah, slide right into my lap. I'm just gonna grab your

ass and push you down on me, right there. Hold still and feel what I'm

doing to you. "Grrrwww"

*****

Can't, ahhh, think. He so hard and feels so good rubbing on me like that.

We are wearing way too much. I'm just gonna take off your shirt, and it's

getting so hot down there. All that friction. Look at his face; he's

really turned on. I wonder how far we should take this. I mean, we were

just kissing and now we're practically having sex. Mmmm, there's a

thought. Sex with Spike.

He's trying to take off my blouse and bra, but he's so turned on he's having

trouble. Okay, up over the head, undo the clasp, oh YEAH! His tongue is so

cold on my nipples. He's so good at this! He sucks on me one second, licks

me the next, and nibbles right after that.

"Gaaah Spike, Ohhhh" was that me? He's got little flashes of light bursting

behind my eyes. I want him so bad. To hell with this, I'm gonna have him

right now.

There we go, it's your turn. Okay, so there's no shirt on him, so how about

I start there. He seems to really like it when I just flick his nipple with

my tongue, so I'll keep doing that while touching him lower and lower.

There's his jeans, and a little bit lower . . .

He's hissing and it sounds so hot. All I'm doing is rubbing the palm of my

hand up and down the front of his pants, and he's thrashing around like

crazy. Okay, let's pull open the button, and slide down the fly, and WOW

he's big. And hard too! I haven't done this too many times. Angel doesn't

count, and with Riley, there was no foreplay. Let's see here, how about I

just kinda hold on and slide my hand up and down nice and slow.

*****

Oh God Oh God Oh God, she's giving me a hand job! Oh God! I can't take much

more of this! I'm humping her hand like I'm in heat, and what do you think

you're doing? She can't be, she is! Oh baby, I can't, too, much.

Mouth on me, she sucking on me and it feels so good it almost hurts! Which

is the only thing keeping me from cumming, but it's not gonna work much

longer. I can already feel my sac getting tight. Come on luv, you have to

stop or I'm not gonna make it. "Aaaahhhhaaa!" But those pink lips wrapped

around my cock, her cheeks sinking, those eyes looking up at me. Soon, like

now, lemme just, ahhh, that's better. I can't remember the last time I had

to grab my cock like that to keep from cumming. She's trying to pull my

hand away.

"Luv, if I don't, I'm gonna,"

"I know. Let go."

Did I hear right? Holy shit! She wants me to cum! In her mouth! This is

too much for me. Okay, she's wants it, she's got it! Oh, look at that

tongue liking the head. Just a little more, I'm almost there baby, yeah,

suck on me. Just. Like. . .

"AAAAHHHHHAHAHHHHHH!!"

*****

"Mmmpff," he's cumming so much! I don't know if I can swallow all this.

He's got his hands in my hair holding me down on him, there we go. Just a

little dribble left. But I'm gonna keep on sucking on him 'till he just

can't take it anymore.

He's still thrashing around and sliding in and out of my mouth. He tastes

really good. I think he's calming down now, cause he's leaning forward . .

.

Wow can he move fast! One second I'm on the floor with my head between his

legs, and the next I'm on the couch with his hands pulling my skirt up and

my panties down. I must be really swollen and wet, cause he's looking and

me and licking his lips. I think he's waiting for me to let him know it's

okay. Lemme just wiggle my hips and moan a little.

There, cold finger! I'm gonna have to get used to that. He's touching me

all over! Oh yeah, right there! He's playing with my clit and no one's

every touched me like that before. Now it's my turn to jump up and down on

the couch. He's looking at my face while he fingers me. One finger, two

fingers, oh God that's so hot! I can feel myself getting wetter and wetter

with every single stroke!

Three fingers? Well, I guess that's not much thicker than his "OOOHHHHHH!"

What the hell was that? I'm cumming and he's barely touched me! Oh yeah!

Do that again, right THERE!!!

*****

There we are. Found your button luv, yeah, cum for me. Let's see how many

times I can touch it before you pass out. Mmm, you look good enough to eat,

your lips all swollen and throbbing, your clit peeking out. Speaking of

your clit and eating . . .

I thought your lips tasted good, but by God! If your lips are sweet honey,

then this is pure ambrosia! You really like it when I suck on you right

there, on your swollen, throbbing, hot little nub. I like the way it feels,

rolling my tongue over and around it like that.

Damn, I'm hard as a rock again. But I don't think that's gonna be a

problem. Definitely gonna get shagged today, as long as I don't wear her

out too much. Um, maybe I should back off on playing with her G-spot then.

She's so wet there's a little pool in the palm of my hand. Can't let that

go to waste, and look at that! She came again watching me lick her off my

palm.

"You taste so good luv."

She's murmuring something, sounds like need you. Yeah luv, I need you too.

Okay, now she's pulling my hair. What are we, oh I get it. You want me to

come up there. Go ahead and get comfy there.

She's a vision. Laying out on the couch, one leg up against the back, the

other dangling down to the floor. Her hair's flared out behind her and

she's hooking her finger at me, beckoning me into her. Don't have to ask me

twice baby.

*****

He's sliding into me, stretching me around him and looking into my eyes. It

feels so good, so right. I don't' ever want this to end. "Ahhh, Spike, I,"

whoops! What did I almost say there? I almost told him I love him. And

that would be bad because? Do I love him?

He's nibbling on my neck and purring into my ears while his hips rise and

fall over me. Every time he slides out its like a little death, and when he

slides back in, I feel alive. Really alive! Maybe I do love him. Who am I

kidding. Here I am, making love with him, and wondering how deep my

feelings for him run. Buffy, you've known for a long time that you're in

love. Would it be so bad to just say it?

"I love you." He stopped. Completely. He's just holding himself up over

me and looking at me. What's that on my face? I'm crying, aren't I. I am,

and it feels so good inside! So warm and full and wonderful! "I do Spike,

I love you."

*****

She loves me. She loves me? SHE LOVES ME! And she's crying cause I didn't

say it back. No, wait, she said it again. She's crying because she does

love me, and it's a good kinda crying.

"I love you too Buffy. I love you so much!"

I do love you! More than anything ever! I'd die for you baby, I'd kill for

you, I'd do absolutely anything for you! Oh God, now I'm crying, and I've

never been happier! She's so tight and hot and I don't even care that this

is the best sex I've ever had! I feel so complete! And even my demon's

rejoicing, this is absolute bliss! And I have to have you!

Yeah, oh God yes, that's so good. I can feel her walls fluttering around me

with the first signs of her orgasm, but I can't slow down. In fact, I'm

moving faster and faster. My hips are pumping and pounding against her and

its so bloody good!

I can hear our skin slapping together, and she's gnashing her teeth and

rolling her head back and forth. Oh that sound she's making, I'll remember

that sound for the rest of my existence. It's the sound of her cumming with

me, that keening and breathy screaming, my name dropping from her lips,

promises of eternal devotion and love from both of us as we spiral and shake

and mesh together.

And those tears on her face are hers and mine, and they're salty and sweet,

leaving glistening trails into her hair. And that exhalation that escapes

from her as the last shutters of passion wash over her, it's perfection.

*****

He's pulling away from me now, and our bodies disentangle. I feel empty

again, but not as empty as before. I need this. I need him. So I tell him

just that, and kiss him, and feel my eyes getting heavy and my mind starting

to slip. I'm sleepy, and I'm gonna take a nap.

He's pulled a blanket over us and is spooning me. Safe and warm, so

sleepy. I want him to be here when I wake up.

"You'll stay?"

"I'll be right here, holding you."

"Mmmm, night. Love you."

"Love you too."

The End.