TITLE: Outside

AUTHOR: o0oBadkittyo0o/Buffytwin1

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RATING: PG

PART: 1/?

PARING: S/B

SPOILERS: yep. season 5

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Outside

So here I am. Standing by the big tree in front of the Slayer’s

house hoping to get at least a glimpse of her. I'm really pathetic. Becoming

just like poof.

I sigh as I inhale an unneeded breath of smoke from the umpteenth

cigarette I have smoked tonight. I'm beginning a nice little collection of

cigarette buds here in front of me.

I look up, and see the Slayer in her room. She is changing into a

nightgown. As she takes off her shirt I watch, and marvel at her beauty. I

told her that maybe her beauty was fading. Maybe that's why white bread

left.

What a lie that was! She's more beautiful than ever! Tomorrow is her 20th

birthday. And no, her beauty is not fading. Not at all.

I wonder if I should get her something for her birthday. Maybe I'll

finally give her those chocolates I got before. Oh wait, those'r all smashed

up...

I look up at her window once more. She looks out as if she senses

me. She looks in my direction, and I duck behind the tree. Bloody hell! I

hope she didn't see me...

I take a quick glance back, and she is gone. I sigh in relief as I

hear the front door open...

She steps out, and walks towards the tree. I know she saw me. What

the hell will I tell her? Same as always. Out for a walk. Tell her to sod

off.

She walks up to the large tree I am hiding behind. She is still

wearing her silky nightgown. She looks effulgent. I want to put my hands all

over her. That'll never happen though.

Suddenly a hand grabs me, and pulls me out of my hiding place behind

the large tree.

"Spike!" She says to me. I can tell she is irritated. I roll my

eyes, and try not to look so completely love sick.

"What the hell are you doing here?"

I try to think of something convincing to say. "Same as before Slayer. Out for a bloody walk! You know your house is still in parts of Sunnyhell that people might just happen to walk by." I hope she believed that.

"Your not people Spike." She says. If it wasn't true, that might have hurt. Might have.

"Well, I'll just be on my merry way then." I turn to go, But she stops me.

"Wait Spike..." I turn to her hoping she will jump on me, and shag me right here.

"Thank you. For watching over my Mom, and Dawn. I owe you one." She

smiles up at me, and I almost believe she means it.

I gently put my hand on her soft warm cheek, hoping to god she won't

rip it off. She doesn't.

"I'll hold ya to that Slayer." I say as I smoothly walk away lighting another cigarette.

And I will...hold her to that...

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Part 2

My Heart Beats Like a Drum

"My heart beats like a drum.

Like a drum. Dum dum dum.

Dum dum dum."

I feel someone watching me. I look out my window. My heart

skips a beat. It's Spike.

"My heart beats like a drum.

Like a drum. Dum dum dum.

Dum dum dum."

I'm actually happy he's here. I will never admit it. But I

have a little crush on him. Who wouldn't? He's HOT. I walk down the stairs

my heart pounding. I know he hates me, so I will be cocky as usual.

"My heart beats like a drum.

Like a drum. Dum dum dum.

Dum dum dum."

I open the door. I don't see him. My heart sinks a little.

Then I see some smoke coming from behind the big tree on the front lawn. I

smile.

"My heart beats like a drum.

Like a drum. Dum dum dum.

Dum dum dum."

I pull him out of the shadows, and before I know it, he's

telling me he wasn't here to see me. I am disappointed. He begins to walk

away. I don't want him to go. I have to stop him.

"Spike..." I say. He turns around. "Thank you...for watching

over my Mom and Dawn. I owe you one." His cold hand is on my cheek now. It

feels like Angel's cold hand. But this is different. It's Spike. I look up at

him. My heart is pounding.

"I'll hold ya to that Slayer." He says coolly as he walks away.

"My heart beats like a drum.

Like a drum. Dum dum dum.

Dum dum dum."

I walk into the house.

"I Close my eyes.

Close the door.

I won't worry anymore.

I've been waiting for you.

Everyday and every night.

Cut the light.

Let it fade.

I don't wanna be afraid.

I've been waiting for you.

My heart beats like a drum.

Like a drum. Dum dum dum.

Dum dum dum."

He'll hold me to that. I smile to myself as I go upstairs to bed.

"My heart beats like a drum.

Like a drum. Dum dum dum.

Dum dum dum."

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END

Part 3

Feelings

I told her. I bloody told her. She rejected me. I knew she

would. She's cocky like that. I love it. I smile as I take a puff from my cigarette. Here I am again. In front of her house. I told her tonight. She

told me she wanted me gone. Out of this town. I don't buy that. Not for a

bleedin second. There's something. I can feel it. I know she can too. Or when

she caught me here before, she wouldn't have let me touch her beautiful face.

But she did. I'll never forget that feeling. Ya sure she changed the locks.

That doesn't mean a thing! She just wants to play. Only going to make me try

harder! She doesn't want to admit that there is something between us. But there is. She knows it.

I look over at the living room window. the light just went

out. She must be on her way to bed. Wish I could be in that bed with her. I look down at the ground for a moment. What if I'm wrong? What if she really doesn't feel the same? I shake my head. She has to! The feeling is just to strong! I will make her see. I will.

I glance back up at the window to see the curtain quickly shut. Huh? Someone was watching me. If it was her, she knows I am here again.

The front door slowly opens. I look up in hopes of seeing her.

Hoping if I do see her she won't yell at me, and tell me to get lost.

It's Dawn. Shouldn't she be in bed? Oh well. I wave at her.

She walks over to me.

"What'd you do to my sister?" She asks looking up at me.

"She's all freaked out. Talking about it can't be true. What can't be true?"

I laugh a little. "None of your soddin' business. Now run

along into your beddie-by." I wave her away. She doesn't go.

"I don't need to go to bed now. Your in love with her aren't

you?" She gives me a knowing look. She's smarter than people make her out to

be. She really is.

"You are! And she knows it doesn't she? That's why she's

freakin'!" She turns around laughing.

"Hey! What are you laughin' at?" I bellow at her. It's not

funny. My feelings are true. They are."

"Oh nothing. It's just that she likes you too. She won't ever

admit it. But she does. That's why she locked you out ya know. She doesn't

want to face the truth." She shivers. "Well I better go." She turns away.

"Hey! Wait! What do you mean? Did she say something?" She

turns back to me for a moment.

"No. But I know she does. I can see it." With that she turns

and walks into the house, and I can here the front door lock. I sigh as a

turn away. Women. Why do they do this to me?

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